![]() I dressed in black to look slimmer and wore clothes two sizes too big to cover the “fat.” When people would tell men I was dating “you are dating a thick girl,” I went on a crash diet to lose weight. I didn’t understand that when men called me “juicy booty Jayne” they were giving me a compliment. I did aerobics, walking, swimming, all to lose weight. If I didn’t have a boyfriend, it was because I was too big. I blamed every bad thing that occurred in my life on my body and my size. This was the beginning of self hate and body hate that lasted almost 60 years. One day I heard a relative say, “I can see why everyone is skinny, she is eating all their food.” I ate my hurt with food. It made me feel bad that my grandparents always had to buy me new clothes. I never had to worry about hand-me-down clothes because I couldn’t fit into my sister’s clothes, not even her socks. I was told, “You are cute but when are you going to lose that baby fat?”Įven though I was the youngest of three, I was also the largest of three. Relatives would visit, and with love, praise everyone but me. I grew up with my thinner sister and brother and was raised by my grandparents. The body shaming started early and came from family. I was sure that I would “grow into my body,” like everyone claimed I would. I thought it would get better as I got older. Even at a young age, I knew the answer was not me.Įver since I was young, I have had a weight issue. Fairy tales told me to ask, “Mirror, mirror on the wall, who is the fairest of them all?” I never asked because I was afraid of the answer. I love the fact that, tired or sick, my body never lets me down, even though I feel that I have let it down on many occasions. Generated by Wordfence at Fri, 12:01:44 GMT.You of all people know that I have had a love/ hate relationship with my body for as long as I could remember. Please read this FAQ entry if this does not work. If the email address you enter belongs to a known site administrator or someone set to receive Wordfence alerts, we will send you an email to help you regain access. If you are a site administrator and have been accidentally locked out, please enter your email in the box below and click "Send". Still benefit from the other security features that Wordfence provides. If you're still having trouble, then simply disable the Wordfence advanced blocking and you will Were accessing your site too quickly, then increase the number of accesses allowed per minute. If you were blocked because it was detected that you are a fake Google crawler, then disable the rule that blocks fake google crawlers. Will need to regain access to your site, go to the Wordfence "options" page, go to the section for Rate Limiting Rules and disable the rule that caused you to be blocked. If this is a false positive, meaning that your access to your own site has been limited incorrectly, then you The reason your access was limited is: "Access from your area has been temporarily limited for security reasons.". Important note for site admins: If you are the administrator of this website note that your access has been limited because you broke one of the Wordfence advanced blocking rules. ![]() Reason: Access from your area has been temporarily limited for security reasons. Your access to this service has been temporarily limited. Your access to this site has been limited Your access to this site has been limited ![]()
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